yesterday i felt numb because i didn't know how to react to whatever was going on around me. too many things were happening, too many people were affected, and too much negative energy abounded that my defense mechanism was to just be numb to it.
i felt the negativity so badly i failed to wake up early to go to school yesterday. i missed a class in statistics and a quiz, as well as submitting an assignment. but it afforded me more time to sleep, to rest, and to relax before the daily grind that is work.
maybe things happen for a good reason. the turmoil happened to spare me the added agony of working with someone i don't really like. maybe i worked too hard before, but now i won't because, as my workmates put it, what's the point of working too hard when all you get would be a cursory glance and a big headache.
yes. what's the point. i'm way beyond angry, sad, depressed about the situation. i'm numb, accepting, and strangely enough, happy that all of this is happening.
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